The when, not the if.
[Tangent: I find it strange that some people don't know if they want to have kids... I don't think it's strange when someone says with conviction that they DO or DO NOT want to have kids, but the whole waffling-in-the-middle thing has me baffled. My guess is that most people who don't want kids just don't want to say so because then they'll have to face the irrational random person that insists that having kids is somehow the only truly worthy thing in life. FALSE. If whether or not you have a child and subsequently raise someone who will be (statistically) average is your gauge of whether or not you are successful in life, most people shouldn't have children. But people don't have children logically... ultimately, it's an emotional decision. And as such, you either know you want to have kids, or you know you don't want any. Maybe I'm wrong-- any comments?]
So. I wish I could have a baby. Right now. No, not even right now– like three months ago.
But sometimes I get nervous. I think about all the things I feel I should have more things done and more things. (You know, like a house. And a nursery, or at least a crib.) (But then, people don’t buy cribs until they’re pregnant, right?) (Or at least a plan for acquiring said crib…) (Babies can just sleep in the closet, right?) (I seriously love that idea, by the by.)
And I can list all the practical reasons why not to have a kid soon (or ever, see above) all. night. long. But who cares about reasons and a logic and rationality when you just want to have a baby? I don’t want to wait until we’re set in our ways. I want to be a parent when we’re still flexible enough to adapt. As far as I can tell, being able to adapt is (one of) the most important qualities to have as a parent… and losing that ability scares the living daylights out of me.
Then again, I’ve never met anyone who wished that they had had their children earlier in life.
(I also listen to more Maroon 5 and Taylor Swift than I think any respectable parent should listen to.) (Also, it’s probably immature to base whether or not I should have kids soon on what kind of music I listen to, right?) (What is “parent” music, anyway?)